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[diana_abel]

No, I'm glad you did
Not everyone is forthright about their pasts, especially in my world

[skaikru]

I can see that, I guess.

Mine was just common knowledge, I
Anonymity wasn't ever really an option.

[diana_abel]

It could have been here
You made a choice
I respect that

[skaikru]

Not a benevolent one. It wasn't a noble choice.

I wanted you to know what you were potentially signing up for, being my buddy. ( a flawed system, and she hates it and is coming to despise stede bonnet for his insistence they pair up. ) But I think I was mostly trying to scare you off.

[diana_abel]

Well, you failed there
You haven't scared me off

[skaikru]

( yet, a self deprecating voice growls in the back of clarke's head. it's gotta be inevitable, she always does. the few people she'd bared parts of her soul to that hadn't run away must just be... outliers... )

I was just trying to
warn you I guess. I'm not a great person to rely on.

And I still think the buddy system is stupid, but seeing as it's the brainchild of Stede Bonnet, I'm not surprised.

[diana_abel]

[It may be a little childish, but Diana's not sure it's stupid. Given all the unknowns of the situation...well, it doesn't hurt.

However, she's not about to argue with Clarke.]

You're brave and smart and introspective
Pretty great qualities, if you ask me

[skaikru]

Incredibly stubborn, impulsive, high strung ( and bloodsoaked. )
I can be really bossy, too.

[diana_abel]

No, no
We don't say "bossy" about girls any more
It diminishes them
We say "assertive" and you certainly are

[skaikru]

Any more? I'm from past your time though, Diana. We definitely still call each other bossy.

Or sometimes, Commander.

[diana_abel]

I like "Commander" much better

[skaikru]

Yeah, me too. It certainly commands respect. But it's also a rank I haven't earned

( and a perpetual sore spot )

so let's stick with assertive I guess? I really don't mind bossy, it's accurate.

[diana_abel]

"Assertive" works.
And someone's gotta be

[skaikru]

( to pick up the slack, clarke almost writes. but she's generally careful about with whom she shit-talks stede bonnet, especially among this rap scrabble shaping of his crew. so instead: )

True.

( plain and simple. but now she's again reminded of the buddy system rule and while clarke always assumed it'd mean texting each other when something was direly wrong, now she's wondering if that was wrong. if maybe this really had been just to chat. )

You sure nothing specific happened that prompted you to text me? You sure you're doing okay with, everything? This whole crappy situation?

( existing here. )

[diana_abel]

Of course I'm not okay with it
Who would be?
I'm just making the best of it
And like I said, I wanted to apologize

[skaikru]

You really, really didn't have to.

( but yanno, it strikes clarke that they're both stubborn enough for this mildest of arguments to go around and around in circles about what one felt they had to do and what the other disagreed with so. )

...but thank you. I'm sorry too, for being... underhanded, instead of just direct. I just need you to know that all my friends back home had a huge penchant of getting hurt. By or because of me, and I don't want to do that to you.

[diana_abel]

I'm tougher than I look
Seriously
Don't worry about that

[skaikru]

I know you are, I can tell.

( she'll just... continue to worry quietly. same as she does over natsuno yuuki, despite having watched him pull projectiles from his body and carry on like it was nothing. )

Plus, vampire right? Do you regenerate too? But to be clear I wasn't... just talking physically. I mean

You seem like a really lovely person, Diana. I don't want to ruin your world view.

( the self aware pessimist right here... )

[diana_abel]

Ultimately, the only person who can ruin my world view is me
Don't give yourself too much credit
I've met some genuinely horrible people
You're not at their level