( it doesn't have to be vindictive in nature to still sting like a slap across the face.
clarke hears the part of her mind that suggests just killing him. hoping he'd wake up whole and unbothered by the side effects of injecting the sun el. it would be one of the worst things she'd ever done — because, yeah, in her mind she'd caused this mess and would be the one to clean it up — but at least natsuno wouldn't be sickly and hurting the way he is right now.
she shakes her head, as if to clear it. banish the thought. they're supposedly past the point where she'd offered him death in the arcade as a means of escape. )
It'll get better. He'll get better. ( all ground out through tightly gritted teeth. he has to. then, she looks up. )
Yell at me all you need to, Rita. Get it out of your system, but know there's nothing you can say I'm not already thinking. It's my fault, and you should be at his bedside right now.
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clarke hears the part of her mind that suggests just killing him. hoping he'd wake up whole and unbothered by the side effects of injecting the sun el. it would be one of the worst things she'd ever done — because, yeah, in her mind she'd caused this mess and would be the one to clean it up — but at least natsuno wouldn't be sickly and hurting the way he is right now.
she shakes her head, as if to clear it. banish the thought. they're supposedly past the point where she'd offered him death in the arcade as a means of escape. )
It'll get better. He'll get better. ( all ground out through tightly gritted teeth. he has to. then, she looks up. )
Yell at me all you need to, Rita. Get it out of your system, but know there's nothing you can say I'm not already thinking. It's my fault, and you should be at his bedside right now.