( the meta out here just reminding how unhealthily similar these two are with their regard for who's deserving of forgiveness and who isn't... some day, clarke's going to listen to pratt talk about how many people he's killed and how many awful things he's done, offer up her near 1,000 kill count number and well and truly grill him about what might make her worthy of a second chance but not him.
today just isn't that day. today is the hangover period after the worlds worst party. today is the fight against dissolving into nothingness within their own heads, still alive but broken and unfeeling. right now isn't for a murderous dick measuring contest, or for greedily leaning into physical contact (she does the latter anyway, all too aware and abhorrently selfish for the comfort it brings her to feel his pulse in the juncture of his wrist). it's for vague assurances that clarke doesn't really think will help in the immediate aftermath, but still bear being said aloud. )
...I don't think it'll ever be okay.
( nor does she really believe any of them can move past this — all of this, any of this. )
We can't make it be okay. But we can take a breath. And then another. And then another. And hopefully somewhere down the line, our lungs will stop burning when we do.
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today just isn't that day. today is the hangover period after the worlds worst party. today is the fight against dissolving into nothingness within their own heads, still alive but broken and unfeeling. right now isn't for a murderous dick measuring contest, or for greedily leaning into physical contact (she does the latter anyway, all too aware and abhorrently selfish for the comfort it brings her to feel his pulse in the juncture of his wrist). it's for vague assurances that clarke doesn't really think will help in the immediate aftermath, but still bear being said aloud. )
...I don't think it'll ever be okay.
( nor does she really believe any of them can move past this — all of this, any of this. )
We can't make it be okay. But we can take a breath. And then another. And then another. And hopefully somewhere down the line, our lungs will stop burning when we do.