( none of this information is entirely new, but she hasn't filtered through her own final moments up on the pool deck enough to completely align facts. natsuno's face had been swimming in her field of vision when he'd held her cold, barely grasping hand and talked about his friends. "you're not dying for nothing" and "let's hope whoever gets your body will make good use of it". of course it'd been planned, and subsequently executed quite well if her last memories were any indication.
her face hadn't been caked in blood and she hadn't needed an eyepatch when she died...
the level of violated disgust that washes through her in this moment is visceral, comes out as a full body shiver, but is going to have to be dealt with later. folded up neatly and shoved somewhere between her ribs, because pratt has called dibs on emotionally spiraling and he's her main focus right now. )
Hey —
( she's still workshopping some sort of inspirational or comforting spiel in her head, something she can say in the face of all of this that would assuage guilt or help his state of mind in one way or the other. but first to see if, when clarke reaches out to grasp his upper arm and then rub it like one attempts to rub painful tingles of numbness out of a limb that's fallen asleep, he'll let her. )
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her face hadn't been caked in blood and she hadn't needed an eyepatch when she died...
the level of violated disgust that washes through her in this moment is visceral, comes out as a full body shiver, but is going to have to be dealt with later. folded up neatly and shoved somewhere between her ribs, because pratt has called dibs on emotionally spiraling and he's her main focus right now. )
Hey —
( she's still workshopping some sort of inspirational or comforting spiel in her head, something she can say in the face of all of this that would assuage guilt or help his state of mind in one way or the other. but first to see if, when clarke reaches out to grasp his upper arm and then rub it like one attempts to rub painful tingles of numbness out of a limb that's fallen asleep, he'll let her. )