[ it was a kind of misery heavy enough that he simply does not think of it. things are fine as long as he has alcohol, love of his life who will never let him down or desert him, or decapitate him, or... ]
Clarke I know I'm unsuited for it Perhaps it's true that I should try again to turn him down for certain but even I don't have the heart for that Actually I wouldn't be surprised if Ebalon would try to kill me whether for that or anything else particularly how I last left him
[ h aha haha he would deserve it. he knows this. he does feel like he deserved the first one. why is this such a mess??? this is why love is a fucking scam and fuckbuddies is the way to go, surely clarke gets it. ]
We don't have to talk about it, I've realized I've vented about this unexpectedly and I didn't mean to This curse or disease or whatever it is really is formidable
no subject
Clarke
I know I'm unsuited for it
Perhaps it's true that I should try again to turn him down for certain but even I don't have the heart for that
Actually I wouldn't be surprised if Ebalon would try to kill me whether for that or anything else
particularly how I last left him
[ h aha haha he would deserve it. he knows this. he does feel like he deserved the first one. why is this such a mess??? this is why love is a fucking scam and fuckbuddies is the way to go, surely clarke gets it. ]
We don't have to talk about it, I've realized I've vented about this unexpectedly and I didn't mean to
This curse or disease or whatever it is really is formidable